uncontrolable :

finally someone show up after a long search.. its not someone who everyone wants but yet its someone i want who i know that would actually treat me the way i want him to treat me.. its just a matter of time.. now i know why people say don't barge into things just get it time and things will be back once again.. i managed to pull myself back together into one piece.. i don't feel like how i used to feel after i met u.. everytime i c u i would just actually smile and that u could just make me laugh non stop.. but i don't know how to express it to u... am i actually still afraid to really express it still? hope ur the one that can actually really help me to open up once again and to feel safe!